The Blonde Feminist

Instead of focusing on my writing, I am pissing the day away flirting with guys I will never meet online. Another problem with ADD is the fact that we can focus on the things that will never get us anywhere in life. I should be looking for a job but since I am afraid to be confined to a desk answering phones since my resume is not up to par in comparison to the new kids on the block of advertising, I am looking for someone to take care of me.I reallly can not seem to hold a job that I find inferior to my ability for more than a year. I get down on myself for not applying for jobs that I know I can do and get even more depressed when I am passed over for jobs time and time again because of my personality showing up in the interview. I get sucked into conversation with the interviewer and then I forget to edit myself.After piddling away on these sites, I finally am so disgusted with myself that I have to reevalute my situation and find something that I can build a career with again.All my endeavors have been complete failures. The only thing I am good for lately is blogging but even that isn’t paying off. I have decided my best option is to return to school, another endeavor that I have failed at numerous times before. I have so many non-transferable credits that I should get a degree for something.I think the Europeans have a better system for people like me. ADDs learn well with the hands on approach offered in apprenticemships.  In America you have to have schooling or get a liscence to begin training on a job. How do you accomplish that when financial means and credit don’t allow for such an option.I am hoping the Fresh Start program at my local university will take pity on me and let me in for fashion or film. I think I can handle work that isn’t confined to an office. I did love being in advertising, it is ashame I made bad decisions about my career and let it slide into the abyss.Just more reason to hate being afflicted with ADD.The Blonde 

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